wOrLdoFlAuGtHeR**me~world

2006-04-17T06:42:00.000-07:00

wah seh~ i forgot to bring my lit notes home!! tmr lit test lerrs!! and lit is one of the subjects tt i treasure in all my subjects... cos its related to language. aniwae, cos i didnt bring my books home, i wouldnt be able to study, then i would do badly for my test and pull down my CA marks! WA~ ='( but actually today had been a great mondae... say like during maths lesson, kaes, those hu heard a weird sound when we were doing the maths exercise.. it was MIE, who was trying to clear my throoaat?! aniwae, i laughed so hard cos angela said it sounded like a ROAR. i so pai sehh larrs... and well, well, i cant believe, meow meow and i r becoming great encouragements and comforts of each another! meow lurve dogs and mie lurve cats! at least, im trying to sae tt todae seemed more of reality than a dream, which was a great improvement for my 'insanity'. to top it all, i had a loonng chat with dear tzin yi, someone i confide my problems in now in zhss.... im lurving everyone and everything.. almost. but just one person ruin my mood. just one. one hu stands a great piorioty of my heart... one tt always makes me hopeful and hopeless... somehow i cant stop thinking of u.

2006-04-15T23:04:00.000-07:00

i've changed. changed into someone even i myself dun regconise. into someone laughing and smiling at one moment, yet feel depressed and sad almost in the remaining time. why must i change? y couldnt i stay as i was, so crappy, lame.. so relmo-ly? i dun wanna change. i dun wanna become another liveless robot, gg after trends and trying my best to please others and not caring of wad i portray as me, rebecca ng? have i gone to a state tt my feelings are all mixed up, my heart frozen, and the only emotion i experience is sadness and depression? seriously, im gonna beng1 kui4 soon. i cant stand it. stand those ppl.. the ppl trying to please me to get advantages from me, the ones i envy so much due to their outer beauty... ... is my inner beauty disappearing, sinking and buried under my vanity? am i trying too hard to please everyone to make them love me for wad i portray, and not hu i really am? there would be the dae, the dae when i would break down and cry, so badly tt i'll never stop, so badly becos im influenced by them so much i turn into a zombie? no, i thot i've changed to be a leader, one tt hides behind their strong fronts, till one dae they erupt, like a volcanoe, so destructive and shocking and deadly? yes, there are ppl hu trys to comfort, saying things like, cheer up... like, no, u're not like tt... ... go away. stay away. i dun want ur comforts. their just phrases with no sincerity and concern in them, just words that mean nth, just things tt make me feel no better. be gone for gd, ppl, go away from this monster. now.

2006-04-14T16:57:00.000-07:00

6a05 rawks!! everyone one of us do. it was sucha success.. (aniwae, if u wanna read my other posts about the class gathering, pls go my other blogs! PLS!!=P) coming back to this post, i realise tt Singapore IS a smaaaaaall place... and tt 3 different races got to share one shelter to stay away from the rain! i neva experienced this before... the most was when my family went my indian neighbours' house to hv dinner with them. the sheter was quite small, so well gotta squeeze abit.. but when i looked around, seeing the indians bbq-ing in this round round bbq (pit?) and them laughing and talking in one area, us laughing and chatting and singing cute songs, lastly the malays, holding the little children and lifting them up and down(ermz in other words, playing with children...) 3 in 1 literally. the indians kindly offered to lend us their bbq round round (pit?) to warm up or bbq our food... whew, small Singapore, small shelter.

2006-03-21T04:31:00.000-08:00

term 1 came to an end... but im still living in my own world, virtually lingering around in pcps, thinking about rare yet long conversations with janelle, or stories i had read recently would blend in with reality, making me confused between reality and virtual. i always had this mindset (since my 1st dae in zhss) tt zhss is just a dream, and when i eventually woke up from it, i'll be back to pcps, back to 6a, back to my friends... ... virtual, or reality? im getting mixed up. just a cheerful look on the outside, yet lost and miserable on the inside... ... im still hopeful... hopeful to wake up from this dream and return to pcps... im still not giving up.

2006-03-01T01:38:00.000-08:00

ok,ok,ok,ok,ok,ok,ok... i'll post! why i always get nagged by my peers for anti-posting?! its temporary... i got too many thots swirling in my brain that i just dunnoe how to spit them all out here in bloggie posts... ... we-ll, im kinda sad... sad about saying sayonara to janelle and friends, the non-existence of 6a'05 as we were officially dismissed from pcps... and then here comes 1e6, where everyone is too unique to unite... im one of e6, and i wanna feel like one. to say its easy, to do its hard... yea yea, i noe... ... no wonder i didnt want to post... i can say cant do... siianz... lost... smile?! i gotta go for a scream... trying smiling and screaming at the same time......cool...

2006-02-10T20:46:00.000-08:00

kaes... this blog was abandoned for quite some time cos... i kept another blog! so we-ll, those who said i didnt post is cos i posted at the other blog which was kept as a secret. so if u are wondering wad i posted in the other blog(posts quite short...), the url is included in my links. but i would continue to use this blog... ...

2005-12-07T05:29:00.000-08:00

yupee! christmas is here again!!i lurve giving away presents... and seeing the =) on ppl faces when they receives the presents... too bad singapore dun snow! or i could just go out and hv a snowballie fight with my friends, build a cute o snowmannie... wow!tts so cool... and cold! =) well tts it... daydreaming away... bye...

2005-12-03T07:22:00.000-08:00

merry christmas!! late at nite... so nitez... snow and christmas and presents and trees and everything... ... magical huh? we-ll, the christmassie time arrives... so i decided to give my blog the kinda festive too! enjoy! bye for now...(yAwNz)

2005-12-01T02:20:00.000-08:00

1st 3 choices of skus... paya lebar methodist gurls... cedar gurls... xin min secondary sku... sigh...bye st nicholas... cant get in! just a few marks! well nvm lorrs... missing my best buddies in 6a'o5! well... i will meet new frienz... but i will neva eva forget u ppl! promise... frienz 1314!but u pals must play a part too!! keep in touch with me! no one sided thingy for me...( window-staring?!) okok... im still the lame old rElMo! december-- the month of christmas is here!! the snow(??), music and presents... santa... jesus born... hohoho! lurve ya lotsa! janelle, call me often! buaix for now!=))))

2005-11-23T20:27:00.000-08:00

oh mann... tomorrow get tt silly grades of mine... how how how??? someone said," if its urs its urs..." huh... very nervous lorz... wawawawawa... wad can i expect?? 200 =?210+?220+?230+? lalala... hu noes... ...

2005-11-18T17:11:00.000-08:00

graduated. just like tt. it just seems sooo... fast... and i cant believed i cried... just overwhelmed with mixed feelings i guessed... just cried and cried and cant stop... and then someone patted me on the back... turned around and saw it was ser yee... just at once i burst into tears... janelle sat in front of me too... tears brimming in her eyes... ok when she came i felt worst... so i squeezed her hand but i just cried harder... wadeva... we-ll, goodbye everyone. (sniff...)

2005-11-17T18:12:00.000-08:00

ok so the last formal dae in pei chun came and went... almost spent the whole dae in the com lab... so i'll remember tt placie... haha... filled with mixed feelings and feel wormie in my tummy... feel so strange... 6 years of my life in pei chun ended so quickly... suddenly i detest the holidaes... but we-ll, i wanna remind everyone to put on a smile when challenges of life come ur way!cHeErS, a happy and sad gurlie...

2005-11-16T11:09:00.000-08:00

the last formal dae in pei chun public sku... obviously i would be filled with mixed feelings... happy cos everyone is off for a new start in another sku to meet new, beta frienz, yet sad coz we might just say sayonara for the last time...(im not meaning as in someone gonna die lars...) well i hope we could K.I.T after soooooo many years... plus the three teachers that taught us and built more of our characters... thank u thank u!! ............................................................................................ May we meet again. thanks.jia1 you1! and god blessa!

2005-11-16T08:19:00.000-08:00

harlo... dunnoe wad to post lars sharlene... wad to post??lalalalalala..................

2005-11-12T15:13:00.000-08:00

there musta be a time when u feel the blues. of cuz, im included. but the BIG difference is tt everyone has a different way to cool down. me? laugh. smile. wad else can i do?? i mean, its really discouraging when u feel down and yet have a smile plastered on my face... but no doubt, no one would suspect a thingy and i would be spared of the the "u ok?" question... but wad good does a little smile and laugh do? no idea. i feel even worst, cos i am struggling to keep tt gesture there... maybe scolding someone? how bout crying? i dunno... but since im so confused, i'll stick to the smiling method... ...

2005-11-05T21:22:00.000-08:00

~msMSmsMsms!~woohoo... spends Few HOURS of my sianz days away with ms=). the mushies, monkies, snailies, zombies, piggies... wadeva! they just chase my loneliness and blues away!! yay yay... hope more ppl plays... guan3 gao4 for ms... still F.O.C wo... hahas... stop being so zhu4 zhong4 in outer beauty... inner beauty is precious too!

2005-10-03T18:07:00.000-07:00

alright. i got it. there was this delimma(wrong spelling?) in my mind tt i finally solved. i just wanna be low-profile. never hv i wanted ter be grand and well-known, but just quiet and original and friendlyand humorous. yea, tts wad im gonna be. thanks to my intelligence, i got the RIGHT(and not left!) answer. cheers, rebecca to rebecca=)

2005-09-30T14:48:00.000-07:00

AAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!! third time walking from the living room to the kitchen aimlessly! psle-phobia i guess... feeling it already... i just feel unprepared but i think i can manage... how about everyone? i siao liaox... maybe i'll kao3 my psle in the hospital... the institution of mental health-- woodbridge there... woohoo gimme me a break! we-ll aniwae... dunno if anyone even come visit my blog... soo................... hApPy cHiLdeN's dAe tO rEbEcCa!! yay!!=) P.S. hello? someone sent u here? u're from woodbridge hospital? came to take me there? huh?! u said tt im siao liaox?! nahh, im PERFECTLY a-ok! bye!*slam* down the phone receiver...

2005-09-27T17:23:00.000-07:00

Hiya everbody! let's paty on! oppsy... we-ll thats what i realli wanna do once PSLE( Please Stop Lame Ex-tions) is over!! Fiesta! yoohoo! just wanna tell those hu r kind enough to come visit my blog-- all the besta YOU and ME! yea... Chinese lesson was toking 'bout compo? ya and on tt compo 'bout friend betrayal, wo3 gan3 chu4 duo1 duo1... Qiqi ar... Wenxi ar... rebecca ar... those unforgotten memories, those neglected friendships... wad ever could we do?

2005-08-13T04:50:00.000-07:00

elmo's world!

2005-08-05T21:00:00.000-07:00

*yAwNz*... hmm... just woke up... i went home today and i felt soooo tired i went ter slp from 3pm sth till 5pm sth! dear... must be real dead beat... so hows everyone's results? today was realli scary.. first mrs lim... then mrs chen.. *sheesh*.. teacher are all stressed up eh? even miss chia hving bad dreams! today is the coolest day in moi life... moi gor2 not home... so i can use he com. to the max.. mama not home... use dao4 shuai3! envy moi ppl!!
ar yes... got sth wanna say ter whole class, frienz... its like dunt u feel tt even between frienz.. a little bit of trust is missing? no one cares bout each others feelings, just do wad u wanna do... we wont make frienx like tt! im nt saying anione, but this is moi observation... anyone wanna tell moi their feelings 'bout this topic is free to tok/sms/email me. fer now, im tired... but still alive and kicking,growing-up gurlie, rEbEcCa.

Haha

2005-07-29T12:45:00.000-07:00

HIES! i realized that Rebecca did not post fer quite a while, so i decided to keep this blog 'alive' for the time being till the PSLE is over...or when she posts again.....haha anywae has everyone studied real real REAL hard fer ur EXAMS? Well if you have not, well GET STARTED!!! haha erm ... Work HARD, REAL HARD DON'T GIVE UP NO MATTER WHAT kaes? and erm
GOOD LUCK FER YOUR EXAMS....wish ya all can go to the school of your choice........it's not usually the results we are looking fer, but the EFFORT & the HARD WORK put in....

take care everyone....don't get too stressed out...find sometime to relax....

hey everybody! im dashing back in action!

2005-07-15T09:06:00.000-07:00

heys ppl!! look at moi! its ur dearest rebecca posting here again! i decided to hv a look here... aiyo!!! nvm... i feel kinda bad fer shar... humiliated in front of the whole class! *whew*... cant imagine tt happening ter moi... cheer up sharlene.. i know i CANT understand how u feel(to be honest:() but i hope u r at least a teeny weeny bit comforted. To everyone= lets help each other when we r dropping damn low in spirits!--urs, rebecca or becca or rebe?! or wadeva u say! Luv everyone! treat moi goodly!:)--

sry ppl..!

2005-06-25T12:02:00.000-07:00

ok... just decided ter change moi password so tt i can post agn... so we-ll harlo ppl..! i have not finished moi hw... opps.. how bout all of ya? cant wait ter c u guys on mondae! *sigh* i wish tt holidaes wont end! lolx... cos after tis holidae it would be going on gear dunnoe wad... faster lar! diaox... i gettin' mental block these few daes... cant even excite moi self when i started ter rite compo... cant even think of a nice story... *sigh* wads happenin'...?

2005-06-17T22:05:00.000-07:00

sry ppl... hv not post fer a longggggg time... we-ll u noe i feel kinda lazy now and just wanna relax... since moi trip... i realli dunoe wad ter sae... but fer those ppl hum posted and i dunnoe de... hax... well tell moi full name pls... tts fer all... cya guys... sMiLe!... cos i luv ter laugh...
urs, *maplestory fan*

2005-05-27T17:56:00.000-07:00

wHoPpEe!! yay... so overjoyed u guys did it! praise the Lord... okok... i noe i am mad... but woah... u guys rawk! thanks to xie4 lao3 shi1 too... aniwae i havent got the guts to tell her that i not going bu3 ke4... arghhhhh... *wah*wah* so we-ll see u guys TML at learning fair kaes? we all kind souls larx... help teachers... and so glad tat mrs chen also bringing us somewhere cos we helped out in the 1.6km walk and jog as marshalls... P.S. wad if she is going to sell us away??
lolx... aniwae... wanna tell u guys to remember this when u r boiling and erupting any time... +lOvE eNdUrEs aLl tHiNgs+ its from the Bible-- cor 13:7... see ya nxt time...
... oliver(pye pye de gf) the ostrich! hahax... ;)

2005-05-26T15:54:00.000-07:00

yay! yoohoo... term 2 is finally over... happy or sad? diaox or miaox? its' all about PSLE yea... we-ll.. to those who scored badly for the exams( moi self included..) dun give up mann!! there's nothing wrong with u... or ur brain... attitude? depressed? why not talking to moi? i noe i cant solve yer prob... but i feel tat i am a so-so listener! just whip up a msg and send it to moi at becca_elmo28@hotmail.com... heeheex.. i am not advertising... aniwae the ppl helpin out at the learning carnival... r u all excited? i am!~
*energetic ancient lady... rebecca ;)*

2005-05-25T22:25:00.000-07:00

diao diiix!! made it a point to post daily... so hows everyone feelin? happy? nervous? diaox? lolx... dun worry if u ppl are scared... i will take the last position of the class sia... THIS IS TO ALL 6A'05 old ladies...err.. chilli puddins? wadeva... so we-ll just gd luck!! god bless! xxmuackxx
ur luvable roadrunner... rebecca:)

2005-05-24T17:06:00.000-07:00

bew bewx!! ellews to everyone! hows ur short holiday? mine was awsome... i went to east coast and stayed there from sundae to mondae...lets not tok mucha bout tt... we-ll i just wanna ask u ppl out there... wad kinda person am i ? wad do i show? pls be truthful bout it... can email moi or write in tagboard... i'll look forward to read all u hv written! and moi napfa got 10.59... think i ran quite slow... sheesh!! sharlene how didya run sooooooo fast?? no eye deer... and me cannot go for bu ke on june 1,2,3!! how? i hv not tell xie lao shi... sure scold moi sia... HOW???

friendship...

2005-05-21T21:21:00.000-07:00

suddenly i read moi own diary and realised tat i very childish sia! i mean... the way i wrote moi feelings...i realised i neva knew wad friendship is all about...tt was in primary 3...when life was scary... cos i got last in class for sa1... yee phon and i had lotsa fun...........then primary 4... i met wen xi...time flies...friendship between moi and wen xi went away with the wind...i had a nervous break down in primary 5...i feel deserted...out of the world...janelle and sylvia came...and till now we had been gd palx since...wOaHz... ... opps...hi...i wrote a whole chunk of moi life?opps...sry ppl...hope u dun mind...xx dreamz of hope, luv, there i go again...dar!!kaes... buaix and i luv u all...as in frienx.....;)

rOaD mArShAlL experience...

2005-05-20T01:19:00.000-07:00

xxheyxx...today was quite a sweaty day!i am the road marshall for the 1.6 km bla bla...so hv to reach school at 6.30...hOwEvA i woke up late cos i slept trough moi alarm clock ringing...arghhh!!gotta take a taxi...then reached school...some ppl playin...timothy,sylvia and jiasheng and amelia...grace came...then out of the blue, there was this sportish lookin car dashin into the parade square! i tought the driver wanna kill us! then,he threw a pile of newspaper and schreeched off.....scary sia...everyone was too shocked to speak...then we decided to play freeze and melt...quite fun lorx...duty de time i just watched ppl run and tell them to run faster...u can do it...blabla..some just dun listen...so uwe had to run with them or after them...yea...tt's all...buaiz...

2005-05-19T20:30:00.000-07:00

i got nth to type but i wanna update moi blog daily so no one will get sick and tired of it...aniwae i just wanna tell all u ppl tat moi ting xie i got 25 marks oni!!!oh dear...cannot use that bk. liaox or ma must sigh then she find out i dIe!!lolx...but today is quite a nice and exciting day...for moi...hows u ppl de??cHeErS...bEcCa tHe oLd lAdY wItH dEnTurEs...

2005-05-18T19:49:00.000-07:00

heeheez...today is my fav. day...i know ppl will say larz...but i have to admit...todae sooooo exhausting and sooooo fun!!lolx...diaox...aniwae i wanna thx amelia to be moi going home escort!!hahax...and lamie ppl call moi ostrich...the...amelia will noe...keep ur mouth shut eh!!6A'o5 realli rockz!!aniwae i gotta go...needta go tag xin yuan...rite??hahax... aniwae moi,becca old lady wanna remind everyone to keep sMiLiNg!!

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2005-05-17T13:56:00.000-07:00

heyz...im lame ...but i wanna say for the sCiEnCe pApEr...thx for all those hu gave moi encouragement!!yes??and i like wad iris told moi...sMiLe and the wOrLd would sImLe aT yOu!!not anione but u!!ok?aniwae...always keep mrs chen de advice circulating in ur mind!--do NOT rest on ur lAuReLs!!byez...sighing off... --onwer of laughter and diaox;)

2005-05-17T04:35:00.000-07:00

heeheez......today so hApPy... even though the saddest thingy happened to moiz... we-ll...hope u ppl will confine this secret to urself...i was one of the two ppl to FLUNK moi sCiEnCe pApEr...come to me if u wanna noe moi marks...not tat holy larz...just if u wanna noe for fun...come...BUT pls dun cOmPaRe moi with other folks...jUsT wAnNa sAy...sMiLe!

=)LAuGhsMiLegIgGlE**

2005-05-16T21:30:00.000-07:00

im new kaes...just created it... i wanna thank iris for all the help she gave me!!just ter everybardy here....SMILE!!##cHeEsE##cos u r in my blog!

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hey everybody! im dashing back in action!

sry ppl..!

friendship...

rOaD mArShAlL experience...

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