[[about me]]
rebecca aka relmo
lurves elmo
25/12/92
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[[likes]]
maplestory
friends tt listen to me
Love God...


[[hates]]
fakers
misunderstandings
darkness


Your Midis

Monday, April 17, 2006

wah seh~ i forgot to bring my lit notes home!! tmr lit test lerrs!! and lit is one of the subjects tt i treasure in all my subjects... cos its related to language. aniwae, cos i didnt bring my books home, i wouldnt be able to study, then i would do badly for my test and pull down my CA marks! WA~ ='( but actually today had been a great mondae... say like during maths lesson, kaes, those hu heard a weird sound when we were doing the maths exercise.. it was MIE, who was trying to clear my throoaat?! aniwae, i laughed so hard cos angela said it sounded like a ROAR. i so pai sehh larrs... and well, well, i cant believe, meow meow and i r becoming great encouragements and comforts of each another! meow lurve dogs and mie lurve cats! at least, im trying to sae tt todae seemed more of reality than a dream, which was a great improvement for my 'insanity'. to top it all, i had a loonng chat with dear tzin yi, someone i confide my problems in now in zhss.... im lurving everyone and everything.. almost. but just one person ruin my mood. just one. one hu stands a great piorioty of my heart... one tt always makes me hopeful and hopeless... somehow i cant stop thinking of u.

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6:42 AM

Saturday, April 15, 2006

i've changed. changed into someone even i myself dun regconise. into someone laughing and smiling at one moment, yet feel depressed and sad almost in the remaining time. why must i change? y couldnt i stay as i was, so crappy, lame.. so relmo-ly? i dun wanna change. i dun wanna become another liveless robot, gg after trends and trying my best to please others and not caring of wad i portray as me, rebecca ng? have i gone to a state tt my feelings are all mixed up, my heart frozen, and the only emotion i experience is sadness and depression? seriously, im gonna beng1 kui4 soon. i cant stand it. stand those ppl.. the ppl trying to please me to get advantages from me, the ones i envy so much due to their outer beauty... ... is my inner beauty disappearing, sinking and buried under my vanity? am i trying too hard to please everyone to make them love me for wad i portray, and not hu i really am? there would be the dae, the dae when i would break down and cry, so badly tt i'll never stop, so badly becos im influenced by them so much i turn into a zombie? no, i thot i've changed to be a leader, one tt hides behind their strong fronts, till one dae they erupt, like a volcanoe, so destructive and shocking and deadly? yes, there are ppl hu trys to comfort, saying things like, cheer up... like, no, u're not like tt... ... go away. stay away. i dun want ur comforts. their just phrases with no sincerity and concern in them, just words that mean nth, just things tt make me feel no better. be gone for gd, ppl, go away from this monster. now.

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11:04 PM

Friday, April 14, 2006

6a05 rawks!! everyone one of us do. it was sucha success.. (aniwae, if u wanna read my other posts about the class gathering, pls go my other blogs! PLS!!=P) coming back to this post, i realise tt Singapore IS a smaaaaaall place... and tt 3 different races got to share one shelter to stay away from the rain! i neva experienced this before... the most was when my family went my indian neighbours' house to hv dinner with them. the sheter was quite small, so well gotta squeeze abit.. but when i looked around, seeing the indians bbq-ing in this round round bbq (pit?) and them laughing and talking in one area, us laughing and chatting and singing cute songs, lastly the malays, holding the little children and lifting them up and down(ermz in other words, playing with children...) 3 in 1 literally. the indians kindly offered to lend us their bbq round round (pit?) to warm up or bbq our food... whew, small Singapore, small shelter.

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4:57 PM

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

term 1 came to an end... but im still living in my own world, virtually lingering around in pcps, thinking about rare yet long conversations with janelle, or stories i had read recently would blend in with reality, making me confused between reality and virtual. i always had this mindset (since my 1st dae in zhss) tt zhss is just a dream, and when i eventually woke up from it, i'll be back to pcps, back to 6a, back to my friends... ... virtual, or reality? im getting mixed up. just a cheerful look on the outside, yet lost and miserable on the inside... ... im still hopeful... hopeful to wake up from this dream and return to pcps... im still not giving up.

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4:31 AM

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

ok,ok,ok,ok,ok,ok,ok... i'll post! why i always get nagged by my peers for anti-posting?! its temporary... i got too many thots swirling in my brain that i just dunnoe how to spit them all out here in bloggie posts... ... we-ll, im kinda sad... sad about saying sayonara to janelle and friends, the non-existence of 6a'05 as we were officially dismissed from pcps... and then here comes 1e6, where everyone is too unique to unite... im one of e6, and i wanna feel like one. to say its easy, to do its hard... yea yea, i noe... ... no wonder i didnt want to post... i can say cant do... siianz... lost... smile?! i gotta go for a scream... trying smiling and screaming at the same time......cool...

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1:38 AM

Friday, February 10, 2006

kaes... this blog was abandoned for quite some time cos... i kept another blog! so we-ll, those who said i didnt post is cos i posted at the other blog which was kept as a secret. so if u are wondering wad i posted in the other blog(posts quite short...), the url is included in my links. but i would continue to use this blog... ...

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8:46 PM

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

yupee! christmas is here again!!i lurve giving away presents... and seeing the =) on ppl faces when they receives the presents... too bad singapore dun snow! or i could just go out and hv a snowballie fight with my friends, build a cute o snowmannie... wow!tts so cool... and cold! =) well tts it... daydreaming away... bye...

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5:29 AM